You will never understand...

You will never understand how I feel for you
I remember in days gone by you used to tell me
"I love you more than you can love anyone in this world"
I think you forgot one important person,
Yourself.

How i fell for you, how much I love you...
none can compare
you have no idea,
You are not mine, for taking or sharing...
yet my heart beats everlong after you
the sound of your breathing, the rise and fall of your chest
that is music to my ears
when i see you smile
i cant help but to smile too
when I see you weep
my heart weeps for you
no matter how much you aggrevate me, hurt me, confuse and abuse me
the fact remains I will always be there for you
always there to pick up your broken remians,
to piece togather your shard pieces, make you whole again
like a mother i look out for you
like a lover I pine for you

I know you will never be mine
your love that we shared is now long gone and buried
and that now he is your world
your life, your past, present and future
I know how you feel for him is stronger than how you have ever felt for anyone before
I know everytime he hurts you, in your eyes he only seems more perfect
I know he is the one for you
this bond between you two I shall never trespass

But all I want to say is
you can't blame me for loving you
for wanting to hold you and comfort you
for wanting to be that ray of light in your life
but it seems it will never be
this I must accept
dont think that I have moved on and forgotten you
that can never be
you have taught me so much, showed me so much
you are my stars my moon and my heart's desire
just like the way he is yours...

You will never understand...
that I am so inlove with you....