Because I'm Broken

Feel free to abandon me every time
I promise you my tears are real.
Does this prove to you, although I'm destroyed
Sadly I still feel.

I've let my heart win without second thought
It's wishful thinking in the most deadliest way.
I ignored but now those deepest scars
They refuse to fade away.

Of course I know it's self-inflicted
This damage obviously has consequences.
It's terminal, and I wish I was immune
As I see my shattered defences.

I'm just so tired of this smiling facade
That doesn't reflect the screaming held inside.
I pretend to be glad but couldn't you see?
After every word, I died.

I can't listen to our song, think about our time
Now I realize you thought I was forever.
I was taken for granted, beaten and slaughtered
And I'm struggling to get better.

After refusing to cry, I now refuse to even laugh
I've had enough of being a token.
It's because I'm not that girl, I've been murdered
It's because I'm broken.