Julie Michelle is Confused.

Just hanging on,
Ultimately they'll have to know about all the
Lies I've told just to keep a roof over my head.
Insecurity is a big issue but maybe it wouldn't
Exist if i wasn't picked on by my own sister each and everyday.

My life could be much worse but i can't
Imagine why I'd want it to be.
Celebrating the good things is hard when everyone in your
Home thinks that you are something you're not.
Eventually I'll tell them.
Later, I'll tell them later, you'll see.
Let me have a few more years, let me work up the courage. I'll
Explain it to them slowly, i don't want them to be angry.

It's not my fault i hide. My
Secrets keep me safe. They shield me.

Completely safe, I'm not ready to tell. It's
Only a little secret, they'll never know.
Not now, not later only suspect what my
Friends knew before even i did.
Ultimately i will explain it all. I'll tell them my secret; my
Sexuality. They will know the truth:
Eventually. I can't possibly tell them now, that would be
Dumb, i need a place to stay before they know the truth, before they know I'm bi.