Moments

Happy birthday darling, happy New Year
I can picture your face and wish you were here.
I'll miss so many moments, ones I thought I'd see
Though I hate to say it, they're now nothing to me.
I was so sure you would be the one
That you'd always be here and never be gone.
I was always so sure you were my best friend
I was so sure but then my love had to end.

I miss those two people that we used to be
Back when all was golden, golden for me.
When it was so easy, it was so perfect and long
It would last but I guess I was wrong.
I can remember those days as if they were now
When we were free to play, laugh and shout.
We had each other and didn't need another soul
Just another memory to rip another hole.

I thought you'd be here, I thought you would hold
After promising so much, until we grew old.
I guess I'm trying to say, I've been broken before
But you were the worst although I don't know what for.
Andafter all this time that should help me heal
I still get the feeling that my soul's not real.
You've moved on and your heart is in-tact
While I struggled with regrets that won't go back.

Happy birthday darling, happy New Year
I'm still waiting for thanks for wiping your tear.
You took me for granted and though I'm a mess
I refuse my love to be like an unwanted guest.
I want to move on, to feel wind through my hair
Throw away my worries and never to care.
But I hate to say it, the only thing that makes me glad
Is just to sleep and forget to be sad.