Open Up My Heart

I'm praying now,
I'm down on my knees.
"Don't let him say it,
please, God, please!"

When he says he loves me,
I'll have to say I don't.
Or maybe I do.
How can I know?

The one before him,
Ruined my heart.
I want to fall in love,
But I'm too afraid to start.

I know, I know,
He said he'd be true,
But the one before him,
Said he'd be faithful too.

Now, I'm thinking,
What can I lose?
I can't hang like this forever,
I know I'll have to choose

Between always being broken,
Or just plain moving on.
I will not win in fear,
or the one before has won.

It's truly not fair,
To make him wait for me.
I'm just wasting his time,
Unless I know I'm ready.

I'm trying so hard,
To forget all of the past.
All the love and memories,
But they always seem to last.

Still, when I see the one,
Who broke my heart in two,
Pain shoots through every nerve,
I can't think of what to do.

Now, amongst my thoughts,
Realization finally starts.
The new one's love is all I need,
To open up my heart.

I just hope he understands,
That I'll need some help to heal,
But at last I'm moving forward,
Slowly, but for real.

And as I stand by him today,
I know I can move on.
My figure may have stayed the same,
But my heart's two pieces became one.