Who do I love more

My heart aches
as it breaks
I just don't understand
it's not possible
part of me lies with him
the other with you
about you though
I've never met anyone like you
your more than I need
and in everything I do
which is one of the many reasons that I love you
and with him
life stopped being as dim
a reason to smile
a reason to giggle
and a reason to stay around for awhile
even though all I wanted to do was die
now I'm panicking
because who I want more
in the end
do I look like a whore?