Pretending

I watched you from afar.
If it's in a classroom or in the car.
You were always so cool,
but I only got to see you in school.

You gave me a rush when I saw you.
At lunch time, when you're around, I'm even scared to chew.
You're like the king card.
While I'm the joker, then reality hits me hard.

You look my way.
And I have nothing to say.
But then I see you look over my shoulder.
It's like I'm hit by a big boulder.

You're looking at the pretty girl.
Not me, but the beautiful pearl.
Sadness is all I feel.
And now, you kiss her, the perfect couple seal.

I know my heart broke.
I feel my pillow start to soak.
My tears are never ending.
Now, all I'm doing is pretending.

Pretending that I never loved you,
because I know that you were never true.
I feel numb all around.
I don't want to hear another sound.