Tears

I try not to let the tears shine through;
I try not to let it show that it hurts to much;
I try not to let my pain break my fake smile;
I try not to love you;
But I think I'm asking myself too much.
It hurts and I feel like I'm in heck.
I can't breathe, can't sleep,
And all I do is miss you.
I try hard to act like it's all okay,
I try to let myself be strong.
It's hard holding on,
holding on to this painful heart.

Seeing you with her,
Pains me with our memories.
It hurts to see you near her,
But it makes me smile because you're happy again.
I still wonder what went wrong,
I still cry sometimes.
I want you to be with me,
But I know we just won't shine.

Sometimes I think back,
And smile at our times.
I still need you,
And I probably always will.
I want to tell you,
But it's not worth the trouble.

I still miss you;
I still cry for you;
I still need you;
It's like we're starting all over again.