My Beautiful Drug

He's like a drug.

No matter how much I love him,
I long to forget him.

The more I need him,
The farther away he becomes.

When I'm ready to quit,
He pops back up,
And I'm back where I began.

He's changed my life for the better,
And for the worse.

And no matter how much he tears me up inside,
I can't get enough of him.

It kills me when we are apart,
But when I see him,
I fight to hold back the tears.

What he does to me,
The way he makes me feel,
Is amazing.
But so painful.

Blissful.
Yet torturous.

I love him so much that I hate him.

I hate him so much that I fall in love.