afraid

A complete wreck
Is all I will ever amount to be
I guess it’s the way you belittle me
I am no good
In more ways than one
I really should just load the gun
Its hard not to be tired
Of all the liars
And abusers
I am tired of just being looked at as a loser
Its hard going day to day
I am terrified maybe I should just lay
There and die
I am scared of breathing
Scared of moving wrong
Afraid of singing along to my favorite song
I guess I am afraid of living anymore
I am falling apart
slowly but surely
I no longer have a heart
Pretty soon no beat