I Feel So Lost, So Forgotten.

Have you ever gone to a friends myspace
One that you haven’t seen in like a whole freakin yearr
And read some of their stuff about people who used to be your friends too
And suddenly as you read the stuff, you start crying.
And you can’t help but think that you are worlds apart
when in reality you are only a couple minutes away from them
It just feels like you are two worlds apart because you miss them terribly
You want nothing more than to jump into the computer
and get to where ever they are
You want nothing more than to blink and have them there
like this was all a dream
like you never did move to the next school district.

Ever feel like you are missing out on so much
Stuff that you shouldn’t miss out on
You feel like you don’t belong
when you actually talk to the people you’ve missed.
You cry everytime you think about the people
who used to be your best friends
You cry when you realize that they’ve moved on
and forgotten about you.
That they’ve replaced you with people you’ll never be able to compete with
People who are cooler and better than you
There won’t be a place for you to go back to
in their circle of friends.
You are lost, forgotten, filed away in the back of their brains.
They don’t need you there anymore.

Your job to be there, to talk to, has been filled
with shoes that aren’t yours
Shoes that you’d never be able to fill if you come back
So what are you to do?
You can try to keep that strong connection, friendship with them
Though, i think you and i both know
it was lost long ago
when they said goodbye
When you promised to stay in-touch
to call every chance you got.
Your plans went down the drain
when you seemed to always be busy.
and they always seemed to be busy when you weren’t.
You dial their number
but they’re not there
They are off with other people who used to be your friends
and the people who filled your shoes, who replaced you

There isn’t much you can do
Except for try to keep hold of the past and never let it go
You can also try to move on
it’ll just break that bond you want so bad to keep
Theres the possibility of throwing a temper tantrum
but then where will that get you?
Nowhere
You could scream, and gripe, about every little bad thing that happens to you
But then you are just considered a hyprocrite
So what are you to do?
Sit back and watch everything that took you so long to build
come crashing down?
So many questions will run through your head.
So many memories will replay in your mind
And the pain won’t get any easier to handle
But i guess you have to just grit your teeth and bare it
It just hurts though
I feel so lost
so forgotten