I Hate That I Love You

I’m a pathetic almost 15 year old.
I can’t even tell you that i love you.
I’m not sure if i’ll ever be able to.
Please, just know that its not because of you.
I’ve just been hurt so many times.
I don’t want it too happen again.

The way you move so flawlessly.
The way you can make me laugh just by pulling a stupid face.
The way you can poke me and i don’t slap you.
The way you act.
The way you burst out with something random.
The way you laugh at anything.
The way you make me want to stay in your arms forever when you give me a hug.
The way you have some kind of control over me that makes me want you more and more.
The way my eyes search for you in a crowd.
The way you can’t see out of your hair.
The way you wave at me when i call your name.
The way you say my name.

All of it makes me smile.
All of it makes me wish i wasn’t such a coward.
All of it makes me second guess and contradict my self.
What did you do to me?
I went from thinking your hot to wanting to be more than just one of your friends.
I know this is pretty sudden, and totally crazy.
But i can’t help that i’m already taking that dive off the cliff for you.
Theres two options.
Its your choice.

Catch me or let me fall?

Which will it be?