I'm nothing

I'm not a boy, I'm not a girl
I don't even cost more than one pearl
I have nothing, I have no friends
I look for love but I find dead ends
I can't even move, It hurts more and more
I don't even know how old I am, Mum, am I four?
I should'nt even be living, my dad says
I even think of suicide some days
I can't do it, No-one can
I don't know what to do.. Maybe ban?
I wish I had a life
But now I did something
I had to use it,
I had to use a knife.
I stuck it in
I couldn't hardly move
Pain, more and more
Untill I fell to the ground
Everythings going, My life and my breath
I did it, i finally did it
Today I killed myself.