"just words on paper"

sometimes the words won't come
your fingers are shaking
and your toes are numb
your muscles are screaming
and your head is pounding
you skin is hurting
from where you cut it last night
you feel guilty from the pills
you hid last night
you feel like shit behind your mask of lies
there's nothing to say
but you want to scream it so loud
you sit down to write
and nothing comes out
you delete lines and sentences
words and fragments
you scream at yourself
hate yourself for your failure
fail again and hate yourself again
just words on paper

people can walk away from this
read what you wrote and comment
then walk away
but you'll just stare at the screen
critique yourself until you bleed
scream at yourself when you finally leave
hate yourself for everything

you can never walk away