My Last Romance

My final day has come
He has announced that he’s got someone
A girl who’s not me
I just can’t let this be
I love that boy more than anything
The pain in my existence is paralyzing
To me he has always been perfectness and pure
To my love for him, there is no cure
He’s like a monster in my body, eating my insides up
Soon, all theirs is an empty shell, now there’s just the final job
He’s so beautiful and pale, like a vampire in the night
I could feel him in my spirit at the first sight
His black hair and white skin
Why won’t he let me in?
With a smart and bloody suit, a nailpolish like a starless night, black
If this is true, there’s no turning back
For me there’s nothing left
There’s nothing but tears, flames, anger and love in my hurting chest
I feel like cutting my wrists to try and control my pain
In this life, for me, there’s nothing left to gain
He were the one to tell me, what true love means
And I thought that one day you would show me what it feels like, but instead you made me scream
Inside me there’s an inner struggle of love and hate
But still I sit, asking for God to remember for what I prayed
In a second my life was over
As fast as back when he got sober
His beautiful face is burning on my eyelids
The way he does, I know that no one else, for me, fits
I know that on the inside he’s nothing but a boy
And all over the world, girls, just sees him as some kind of a toy
But to me he’s not
To me he’s more than just a famous dude who’s hot
To me he’s my life, my breath, my soul
In my life, he’s the golden goal
But if he is with someone, he will never be mine
And I feel that, that has got to be the final sign
My time has come, I’m meant to die
Now there’s nothing left, but to say goodbye