I'm Sorry I Told You

I'm so sorry.
I know I promised you,
and I broke that promise.

You were just trying to save me,
from making the same mistake you did.

For some reason it feels good.
It doesn't hurt.
I've always been afraid of pain,
but it's never really hurt.

Just like death.
I'm not scared of death.
Sometimes I wish it would happen.
But then I remember all the people who care about me,
like you Cayleigh.

For that one minute,
I forgot about you,
I forgot about everything important.
About love,
about life itself.

And now I regret telling you.
But sometimes you need a dose of reality,
to mask the true pain.