If Not For You
I finally came to grips with the fact that my life is nothing without you. I need you every second of every day, every moment of every stay.
When you're not there, when you don't call me, I lay here counting the seconds since I last spoke to you.
Those seconds themselves aren't relevant, but the hours upon hours I have spent discussing everything in this crazy and messed up world about with you.
There were the moments in the beginning, when I wanted to strangle you for being so heartless, thoughtless, and careless.
The moments in the middle, where I wanted to hug you for being such an amazing friend.
The moments at the end when I finally realized you were the one for me, and I wanted to smother you and make you mine.
But you were never clear about what you felt for me, and hopefully, our end together is nowhere in sight.
Oh, what I would give to look into your eyes again.
When you're not there, when you don't call me, I lay here counting the seconds since I last spoke to you.
Those seconds themselves aren't relevant, but the hours upon hours I have spent discussing everything in this crazy and messed up world about with you.
There were the moments in the beginning, when I wanted to strangle you for being so heartless, thoughtless, and careless.
The moments in the middle, where I wanted to hug you for being such an amazing friend.
The moments at the end when I finally realized you were the one for me, and I wanted to smother you and make you mine.
But you were never clear about what you felt for me, and hopefully, our end together is nowhere in sight.
Oh, what I would give to look into your eyes again.