forever in darkness

In my darkness
I never see light
My day is as dark as my night
Never trust others enough
To let them near
Is it out of fear
Or out of know fact
Knowing there are very few
That will withstand the rest of my life
Very few that will be able to bring be back
From the verge of the knife
The darkness is getting greater
And I can’t stop it
Will you help bring out the light within
I know its there
Really deep down somewhere
I want to smile
I want to giggle
I want to feel alive for awhile
Can you do that for me
Or am I destined to be
Forever in darkness