Heart to the Floor

Heart to the floor,
eyes on the ground,
i hear their lecture,
i ignore their frown.
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I've done it again,
messed up, failed;
they caught it again,
their anger sailed.
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I never say the right thing,
never, never;
my ears always ring,
yellers, yellers.
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I'm a failure,
a fake;
i'm hopeless,
a rusty rake.
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My heart cracks,
tears leak,
they've rid all hope,
it's Hell they seek.
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They've hurt me,
torn me,
cursed me,
cornered me;
blamed me,
framed me,
shamed me,
named me...
as a horrible child.
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When i go to sleep,
i cry in silent drops,
i'm a horrible, unworthy child,
accused of false-claimed assaults.