Sacrifice

I lied and I hate myself for it
It was for a good reason
But then why do I feel so empty
I did it for her and she’s happy
And so is he but
Then why do I feel so hollow
I cared for him but I let him go
She needed him more then I did
So why am I still so drained
Why cant there happiness fill this void
I don’t see why every time I hear about them
together this void grows to where I think it may consume my whole body but then
I think about her and the void slowly
Starts to close and I slowly become whole
Once again but then as soon as she leaves my mind
The void starts to grow again
So do I give her a chance and try to see if the void
Closes or do I just live with the pain of staying the way I am