Curious

I'm sitting here trying to ease my mind
And leave every good thought of him behind
Going on like this
Is driving me straight insane
It’s like being hit by a train
In your chest
So no more time to reminisce
Because I am trying to be done with this
Trying to be done with him
Pushing myself to forget
But that’s hard
When he’s touched a spot of you that not many people reach
I have to leave you alone
Before I lose my mind
Feeling like this is not something I condone
I hate feeling weak
And that’s what you did to me
You told me that I wasn’t just some freak
But with so many things going up against us
I’m trying not to make such a big fuss
But still I am curious
On what would have been us