Only Stone

Only Stone

Why must they seem so kind?
Why don't they really see?
What if I was to die?
Would anyone care?

Lies are all I really know
Lies every word they spoke
I'm sorry but I just cant live
These lies make it hard to go

But really would you care?
Would you really cry?
Of course not
I only begging you

These wrists they want to bleed
This heart it hurts to much
Confusion is tearing me apart
I don't know what to think

I don't know what to say
I don't want to feel like this
I never have and I never will

But I just cant lie to myself
It just hurts even more
To think of ripping my heart out
And to want it even more

I wish you were here for me
And I wish you knew my, love
But I could never tell you
And never would you, love

I watch you every day
One way or another
To most it would make no sense
And to me its just murrder

A suicidal one sided love
And you don't even know
I'm just that girl
Your friends real friend

Oh how I wish for it to die
I'm hurting myself with every word
And never again
Will you hear me out

No one understands
And I feel so all alone
So unreachable
My heart is only stone