A Solved Dilemma

Originally a song...
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I close the door, and stare at the walls
A lump in my throat, ready to blow
My tears are waiting to surface
Waiting for me to give in
I close my eyes, and memories unfold
Tears surface, they all escape
And my broken heart I hold
I hold it in me, and hope it'll be safe

I never, I never saw it coming
I never, I never knew it'll happen
You've taken away my dignity
I have it back
But now I know
That it's all I'll ever have...

I should have swallowed my pride
I knew I would have been happy still
But I had flushed it all down
Dropped it, stepped on it, thrown it out..
But how was I supposed to know?
I was clouded with thoughts of hurt
Distracted by the soul I had let go
But, there's nothing I can do...

I never, I never saw it coming
I never, I never knew it'll happen
You've taken away my dignity
I have it back
But now I know
That it's all I'll ever have

I never, I never saw it coming
(I thought we were happy)
I never, I never knew it'll happen
(I guess, I had lived a dream, my own fantasy)
You've taken away my dignity
I hhave it back
But now I know
That it's all I'll ever have
That it's all I'll ever have
From now on.