I'll Never Be All Right

This pain you expect to go away, wont
And there's nothing you can do to diminish it
Some things are out of your hands

You expect me to go on like nothing's changed
But you should know I couldn’t do that
This is definitely not something I planned

I just want to knock some sense into you,
Scream in your ear, "What the hell are you doing?"
You haunt my dreams at night

My self-control is slowly shrinking
Soon I won't be able to hold myself back
Then you'll know I'll never be all right

You hurt me,
You really, really did
But I'm trying to let that go

That's difficult for me;
I hold on to things
I just try not to let the pain show