i wish you would go die

Hiding behind these tears
Sorrow consumes my fears
I live in pain
With nothing left to gain
I never realized how much I needed you
But I only saw through
Now that you're gone
I've become so fond
Of this blade in my hand
I can no longer withstand
This pain you have caused
My life will never be as it once was
You always lie
I just wish you would die