Nothingness

I sit here in my room listening to music on the stereo
I hear the words
The voices
The feelings
So much to say in so little time
I think about things I wish would disappear
Memories I wish I'd loose
I raise my voice the words slipping past my lips
I sing to each word my voice matching the words from the stereo
I close my eyes memories and hopes showing through the darkness of my heart
His face comes to mind and tears form in my eyes
He was the reason I sat here listening to music alone in my room
He was the one I loved more then anything, but I hated him more then anything
I stood up the music taking control
I didn't care who heard me, I didn't care who saw me
My voice rose to overpower the speakers, I turned the music up
I hear the words
The voices
The feelings
So many things ran threw my mind
My song faded and so did my voice
Everything seemed to fade away, the memories, the hopes, the thoughts, the pain,
It all just seemed to slip away into nothingness