Simplicity

Down and depressed over responsibilitie age brings;
Wanting to scream but getting in trouble just when you sing.
I'm wanting to scream and shout;
But am finding no way to get it out.
Now allowed to go a lot farther;
Without worrying about mother or father.
Now able to spread my wings to fly;
All I want to do is sit here and cry.
Knowing that years to come will bring lots of trouble;
The worrying,fights, and tears will likely double.
My life is changing faster than my parents think;
I don't want to know what will happen the next time I blink.
My family is growing and so am I;
Pretty soon I'll be telling it all goodbye.
I don't want to grow up but it's happening anyway;
With all this pressure I want to runaway.
The place I used to relax is finally gone;
And most of the time I feel like I have no one.
Knowing I have friends is what keeps me alive;
Without them I would have already committed suicide.
No my life's not that depressing;
It's just my emotions I keep repressing.
Most of the time I close my eyes and pretend I'm not here;
Then I open my eyes and my life reappears.
I hate the feeling of not knowing what will happen tomorrow;
This always seems to bring me pain or sorrow.
My life isn't half as bad as it may seem;
I just can't stand all these crushed dreams.
I can't stand the fact that I'm being awoken by reality;
Whenever I was little it was basic simplicity.
As we grow older a lot of things start to change;
And now our futures are in very close range.
You hate to see what lies ahead;
That's why kids my age suicide or would rather be dead.
My childhood innocence has long ago past;
But everyone knows that never lasts.
Later in life my childhood will be only memories;
And half my friends will be in cemeteries.
Right now I'm as happy as can be;
Since I'm living without simplicity.