What can I do without you?

Im not the one who ended it all,
Yet so far i fall.
The words i cant say,
Torture me all day.
The things i cant do anymore,
Make my heat feel sore.
So much i wish was there,
I dont know why i care.
I relize it was far from true,
Wich left me with nothing to do.
I can never be the same,
And your the one to blame.