Make the Pain Go Away...Please

i watch as
the red jewels
of my own
[[BLOOD]]
flow down my arm
it is so [[warm]]
yet so [[cold]].

the blade
it sits there
like it has
never been
touched.

it looks
so gentle
like if you
touch it
it will
[[shatter]]...
just like my [[heart.]

you held on to it..
like it was your
[[EVERYTHING]]
but then you
dropped it
like it was
[[NOTHING]]

so i just
smile
as the red
drips down
my arm and
on to the white
floor.

will you
pick it up
or leave it there
like you left me
hurting...crying..?

the pain is so
much,why
wont it go away.
please...make it stop..
anyway possible..