suffocation
i cant breathe.
my air supply is low.
the walls of my mind
are closing in on me.
slowly but surely suffocating me.
i wish these thoughts would let me be.
all i ever do is think.
not allowing any rest.
im slowly dying
from the inside out,
and nobody knows
but me.
i built a wall around myself
to keep my emotions in.
i dont remember how to take it down,
and i cant reach the top.
i put up my happy face
and pretend everything is okay.
even though underneath it all,
i know its a massive lie.
inside my wall im lying dead
and still nobody knows.
all i let them see is that happy face,
not all the choked back tears.
suffocation was my fate,
but i can only blame myself.
no matter how badly i wanted to belong,
thats not how it turned out to be.
---T.S.Y.
my air supply is low.
the walls of my mind
are closing in on me.
slowly but surely suffocating me.
i wish these thoughts would let me be.
all i ever do is think.
not allowing any rest.
im slowly dying
from the inside out,
and nobody knows
but me.
i built a wall around myself
to keep my emotions in.
i dont remember how to take it down,
and i cant reach the top.
i put up my happy face
and pretend everything is okay.
even though underneath it all,
i know its a massive lie.
inside my wall im lying dead
and still nobody knows.
all i let them see is that happy face,
not all the choked back tears.
suffocation was my fate,
but i can only blame myself.
no matter how badly i wanted to belong,
thats not how it turned out to be.
---T.S.Y.