Not a normal wonderland

going through this tunnel

how far will it go?

I can hear the meowing and purring of Dyna behind me,she tries to speak to me in her cat ways. pawing at my baby blue lolita dress.

ignore her is all I can do

what must a white rabbit be so late for?

my life flashes before me, as I fall down this tunnel
darker and darker it gets

Why is it that I float down slowly instead of fall fast to my death?

nick nacks,clocks and books float along my side. nonsense

Is this my dreamland?

The drugs I take
sweet like candy

they do peculier (sp?) things to my body

I go up and down
becoming the monster
that is feared by all

shooting up...high

burning down...the house

my strength weakens as I get smaller

My body speaks to me

"Take another sweet treat"

Why?

Devil's voice sings to me through
dafodills,roses,and lilys

even in MY world im labeled
a weed,druggie, no longer am I aceppted there

the air filled with the sweet smokey, scent

handsome,blue like a fairy, tall
he sits amongst the shrooms

Puff Puff Pass

"who are you?"

one must know who they are before answering a question like that

""right now I dont even know who I am"

he stares me up and down

blood shot eyes
shakey hands
cigarette burns on my pale skin

"i dont enjoy being this small, 3 inches is not a good height"

he responses

" I AM EXACTLY 3 INCHES HIGH"

Puff Puff Puff

Turning red as the crimson tears running down my legs

PUFF PUFF PUFF

" I prefer you didn't SHOUT!"
raining colors; crimson red it feels oh so sticky
blue, the tears from his glossy eyes.

I am stuck beyond this so called wonderland
inhaling the ecstacey

Am I crazy?

"one side of the mushroom will make you grow taller, while the other side will make you grow smaller"

bite one; I am thousands of feet high in the sky
bite two; three inches again
lick it and im normal

meowing, purring, singing?
cats surely can't talk

my mind is filled with all the
emotions of this adventure
through my wonderland

can I continue any longer?

sweet smell of tea,
brings tears to my eyes
memories of my old life

His name is MadHatter
beautiful shoulder length silver hair
big brown eyes
crazy green top hat with a dark green gothic like suit to match

Is this who I came for?

tea, oh how hot it is as I sip it, letting it slowly go down

erasing all the addictions and pain

his hand caresses my cheek, making my eyes close

he whispers in my ear

I can almost feel
his tender lips against my ear

" I will give you whatever you desire, more tea? a place to stay? protection from the evil out in the land? my body against yours?

yourr wish is my command, it is your unbirthday after all"


eyes open wide and I hear it again....

meowing and purring

no singing? or talking?

Dyna...

was it all a dream?

what a crazy wonderland