Silenced by the past that haunts me

Taken by shadow.
During night with no stars,
I lay wondering about my life's many scars.
Why me? Why now? I just don't kno.
Who do i tell? Where can i go?
If i hide somewhere, I won' get far.

Life goes by,
and im silenced by fear.
A fist in my throat,
all my many tears,
stop me from talking about why i cry.
I hide my sullen face in my warm coat.

I must get out!
somewhere, where i can shout!

One, who i definitly trusted.
Soon enough.. you will be busted.