I Am

I am shy and depressed.
I wonder what its like to not get depressed over every little thing.
I hear the constant ticking of my life slowly fading away.
I see death slowly coming towards me.
I want to feel how everyone else feels.

I am shy and depressed.
I pretend to be like everyone else.
I feel isolated from everyone.
I touch the love overs have that I never will.
I worry about growing old.
I cry because I can't tell anyone how I feel.

I am shy and depressed.
I understand that I will never be like everyone else.
I say I try to march on.
I dream about that day.
I try to be like everyone else.
I hope that there is still time left.
I am Courtney Erin O'connor