Notice me

I scream for you to notice me
and make an ass out of myself
just for you to think of me
to escape my personal hell
do you see me stare at you?
In the halls and in the gym?
I wish you would talk to me again
and not be corrupted by them
The poems I constantly write about you
I hope there not in vain
its to much to say 'I love you'
I wish to fucking end my pain
Sometimes I want to kill you
Sometimes I cant say your name
Sometimes I lie about my feelings
Sometimes I wish I was immune to this game.