Hate

I hate you so much...
I hate how you give me butterflies
I hate when you call and your voice makes my heart jump
I hate it when I wait forever just to see your screen-name pop up
I hate it when I look at your pictures and I cant help but smile
I hate how you make me feel...
I hate that you make me feel that I have a chance with you...
but I know that my feelings means nothing to you.
I hate it when you call me beautiful
I especially hate it when you call me the nickname I originally gave you...
because I giggle like mad when you do.
I hate how I want to give you the world
I hate when I dream about us
I hate it when you tell me what your plans are when you see me
I hate it when I listen to Rent songs, all I can think of is you.
I hate it all...
but do you know what I hate the most?
I hate that I dont really hate you...
because the truth is: I could never ever hate you.
Never have...never will...
Even if I have to fade out of your existance & pretend to hate you...
I will never stop loving you...