Homicide or Suicide?

I can't breathe
It's my bile
I'm choking to death
Swallow it down
Force away the frown
Pretend that it's gone

Don't let them see
I don't have issues I'm just needy
I wish that they could see me
I recall there's nothing to see
So now just leave me be

I don't deserve the attention
There are those worse off
But it never does satisfy
So here I go again
And my weakness always wins
So let's repeat this parody
I'll choke I'll swallow You'll watch
Just leave me in peace
With my self pitying release.