Linoleum to Carpet

i split in half
torn into a million pieces
blood splattered on the linoleum
of the kitchen floor
knife dripping droplets of sin
bounty paper towels
hide a secret i shouldn't keep

i fix myself
back in one piece
carpeted kitchen floor
without splatters on the walls

just splitting apart on the inside
a million pieces rattling inside
an intact shell
with a pretty smile painted on her
too-pale Barbie face

debating between the promises and lies
knives and pills
questioning herself
is it worth it to split again

can i control breaking in half?

can i even speak?

blood splattered on the kitchen floor
carpet wet
bloody footprints when you leave the room
you'll never cook the same way again