Understanderment

A crowded place,
An open door,
An escape route if you will,

A mirror,
Stands before me,
But I don’t look,
The things i feel run deep

It’s something I can’t get over,
It’s something I try to beat,
It’s something that makes my self esteem,
Deplete.

I mean look at you,
Then look at me,
See the difference,
That is there obviously.

Our worlds are miles apart,
Understanding’s not an option,
So I’ll spell it out,
And then you’ll know

I've been like this forever,
I cant expect you to know,
The things going through my head,
But I dont want you to go.