Perfect

I have to leave here
why should I stay?
cussing and arguing
everyday
our doors are our borders
our rooms are our states
the only time we meet
is when we have plates
the dinner table is where we unite
but every conversation
is always a fight
I'm sick of the bitching
I'm sick of the hurt
I'm sick of you making me
feel like dirt
I've been expelled from the warmest part of your heart
this constant cussing has torn us apart
Some where in the border of truth and lie
they both vanished
and i don't know why
some how hate has out weighed love
I close my eyes but look above
blocking it out
blocking it out
cant hear you yell
cant hear you shout
maybe she'll grow out of it
have another beer
I'll finish on my own
you need not hear
Aren't I just the worst of the worst
I'm sorry I'm your daughter
I'm sorry you are cursed
I cant see my friends
so now they have gone
it never ends
a meaningless con
your brilliant plan has back fired
now when all are around
I'm up in my room
not making a sound
drawing stupid pictures writing stupid poems
knock on my door
nobodies home
isn't it some thing?
being alone.
oh wait you don't knock,
you just walk right in
maybe you want to get under my skin
I don't do any thing then i don't do it right
why do i even put up a fight?
It doesn't matter any way
my heart grows colder every day
its a rusty vault, my heart you see
in which not many hold the key
you lost your key years ago
you never bothered looking for it though...
maybe if you unlocked it you could be
my daddy again
my conscious would be free
the memories faded
the old me has died
my tears had meaning when ever I cried
now my tears are dry when they wet my cheeks
your daughter is troublesome whenever she speaks
my poems aren't worth read
my drawings aren't worth sight
time spent with me is only a fight
I'll stay isolated
and heartless too
if only I was
as perfect as you.