Pen to Paper, Make Love Safer

You're so far away what can I say? I miss you so much every damn day. Next to you, a straight face is hard to keep, laughing all day I get no sleep. Spend my time thinking of what you're doing. Miles away, a secret's brewing.

Am I just paranoid? I don't think so. This feeling has got to go. Please pull the trigger, my mistakes keep getting bigger. I'll deal no longer, I can't get any stronger.

I see you again, at my funeral. Your perfect smile is now gone. Your piercing blue eyes are dull and grey, I'm so sorry, but it's better this way. You start to cry, but please don't, it hurts me worse because this isn't a joke. Maybe you did care after all, and it killed you inside to watch me fall.

A folded piece of paper remains in your hand, you walk forward and place it on my grave. Rushing to your side, I pick it up, begin to read, and then freeze up. A bracelet falls to the ground, the one I used to wear all around. You gave it to me when we met, I'd lost it, but didn't forget. Putting it on, I look over at you, reach out to touch your arm, but go right through.

Your alive and I'm dead, how many times must this be said?

Remembering the note, I look into your eyes,completely full of stress and cries. They glisten with tears and shine bright blue, on that folded piece of paper read

I have a secret......

I love you.

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