Lovely

Where do I belong in your pathetic little heart?
Am I worth a beat, am I there at all?
You don't ever even jump to save me but stand
Staring, you witness the fall.

I'm your Miss Murder, you're' just lust'
I belong to you but I still mean nothing.
And I try, I try until every bone aches
But still I never mean something.

And this pains me, although I can see
It's obvious I'm so inadequet.
In my black mini skirt, with my back-combed hair
And my bright red cherry lipstick.

I can't help this adoration
Though nothing I long for is more agonizing.
I hate you so much it makes me scream
Yet still you look so tantalizing.

I can see you for who you really are
But you remain so beautifully ugly.
You're a pretty disaster, slurred elegance
I crave you yet you're bad for me.

I dress up; I dance around and lick my lips
After all, I'm only after your love.
But you still insist the only thing between us
Will always be spilt blood.

My name doesn't begin with G, F or C
I don't have curled hair or underwear that shows.
If my skin isn't clear and my legs aren't long
You obviously don't want to know.

So you scream at me, I just can't hear you
Escape to Spain and don't look back until September.
Hopefully then, I'll be so choked on your abscence
I'll be grieving too much to remember.

Lovely, you golden mess, you divine lost cause
I don't know why I try to grab on to something before it goes.
Because although I look at you with round, sparkling eyes
I still hate you so.