where did it go

i had it for a while but then it flew away
it was fun and liked me and didn't care about the other people
but when i looked in to her eyes all i saw was emptiness
i had it in my hands but then it slipped away
it hid in my heart but then that broke open
he held on to it then he died
she kept it for a while but then she moved away and didn't pack it
then it came back to me
she had a smile on her face
i said no i can't take you back
all you brought me was pain
all i have are the memories
i passed it on
and then they hurt it
so don' t you ever step your ass back in to my arms
because all i can and will do is loose you
and the alcohol that comes out of my eyes will numb the pain you left behind