Decomposition of the Heart

lately it's been
a waste of time
a chasing of wind
to figure out life

lately everything's been meaningless
my heart's been filled with emptiness
and i've been looking for a way out
some things you can't forget about

my vision blurs
my sick heart hurts

when do i smile when you're never
where am i happy when you're nowhere
who can i trust when you're gone
why am i here when you're not?

this void is eating me inside out
some people you can't forget about
no matter how hard i try
i can't keep my heart alive

you were my hero
you were my drug
and it's hard to let go
of things that you love

as i turn to stone
hollow and alone
i save one spark of hope
as my heart starts to choke

that thing i hold onto
it's memories of you.