Pressure

it's hard to live like this
when everything seems to be going wrong
i don't know my true friends
i don't know if my joy will last long

i know that it gets more difficult to live
so much harder to breathe
when everywhere i look or go
this pressure pushes harder on me

it suffocates, holds tight, drowns
until i can't find my way up
i know that it's always been my fault
for how i've become

no matter what happens
just promise to continue on
you cannot let yourself fall
it gets lonely with you gone

i must be strong, i can't let go
but my hold is quickly slipping
i can't let my fingers free
not with this pressure gripping

so tightly that i cannot see
for fear is blurring my vision
and blood's sweet bitterness fills my mouth
thickening until it feels like cotton

this pressure is getting stronger
and i stumble, trip, and fall
i finally give up, cry out once more
till i can't live at all.