Your Sweet Victory

Last night, I fell asleep with tears in my eyes.
I hope, to you, that's no surprise.
After what you did to me,
You don't really seem to see.
I shouldn't have stayed with you.
I should've told you, "we're through".
But, no, I'm too nice to do something like good for myself.
I'll just make you happy and my life hell.
That's the way I've always been,
Sacrifice my well-being to answer your every whim.
But I don't know how much longer I can deal,
Because you don't really know how I feel.
You don't know that I'm really scared,
That, for this relationship, I'm no longer prepared.

Yes, you know I won't tell a soul.
I don't want them to know, truth to be told.
I hope no one can see behind my wall,
Because, when they do, the tears sall fall,
The story will burst out,
And, at you, I will shout.
I should've that day.
I should've pushed you away.
But I don't want to be alone,
And I hate when my depression is shown.
So, for now, I'll plaster on a smile,
No one will notice for quite a while.
So, to you, I have seemed to give in.
Which means, this time, you win...