I'm Not The Same Anymore

I'm not the same
As I was as a child
I know it sounds lame,
But I must think for a while.

I remember laughing so much
But that must have been a dream
Or such.

It seemes all I do is cry,
I'm not shure if it's true,
But I want to die.

I remember you
And how we were good friends,
But then I messed up
And we never made ammends.

I'm always sad
And I make my mom
So mad.

I know she's dissapointed in me,
But I'm trying
Can't she see?
My soul is dying.

I've tried so hard
To be happy,
But I guess I'm just to sappy.

I shall not trouble you anymore,
For now I will shut this chapter
And close this door.