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Lets laugh with sorrow,
Lets cry happy tears,
Let me mold the mask
Of me into perfection,
The charade of happiness is getting old,
The truth is depressing,
I suppress these stupid feelings
Until I don’t feel anything
I kill myself everyday
I know I am a mess
You don’t have to tell me twice
All I need is to fill the void
Of my heart, mind, body, and soul
but what I do doesn't fill anything.
I need to cut off my state of mind
The words dearly beloved
Is read allowed many times
I hide behind sarcasm
And my hair covers my face
So you won’t see my true expressions
Or my true self until I figure it out myself.
It could take a while,
But it doesn't matter because I have no one waiting on me anyway.