Pretty Enough

I wish I was as beautiful
As you say I am
I want to be as beautiful as
Those girls with flawless skin.

I wish I was gorgeous
Like they say in movies
"Hey Gorgeous"
Like it's a name.

I wish I was elegant
So I'd get some attention
And he'd actually look at me
When I passed him by.

I wish I was dazzling
So I don't have to feel so lonely
Because all eyes would be on me.
And I could hold my eyes up from the floor.

I wish I could sparkle,
So I wouldn't feel the hurt over what you call me.
And I wouldn't feel so guilty for taking the blade to my skin.
I don't want to have to suffer.

I wish you looked at me differently.
I wish you looked at me like you look at her.
I wish you wouldn't have told me,
That I'm not pretty enough for you.

I wish I was at least good-looking
So maybe I wouldn't feel so bad.
I wouldn't have to wonder,
AM I PRETTY ENOUGH NOW?