Love and Fun to Pain and Hate

I want to live.
I want to die.
I want to scream.
I want to cry.

I want to fall far out of love.
But that's what keeps me high above.

I gave myself up.
He went through as well.
It was a heavenly experience.
But now we see it as hell.

It may have created problems far beyond my level.
If i was ready it would be my angel. but instead it's the devil.

He stares.
I cry.
He worries.
I despise.

I wish he would love me as I love him.
But he's to scared to let me in.

He hates what has become.
I love it more than ever.
He's taking my heart and ripping it.
He just doesn't realize that I'll love him forever.