Internal truth - My Fav.

Internal truth

He can't do what he wants.
it's wrong.
it's horrible.
society looks down upon it.
he can't do what he wants.
kissing a girl,
without getting to know her!
is he crazy?
love drunk?
he can't do what he wants.
the drama won't permit it.
life won't let it happen,but,
what if?
what if it happened?
he just walked up,
looked her in the eyes,
and kissed her.
what would happen?
would the sky fall on him,
kill him?
would life crash down,
leaving him hopeless?
or would it spark a flame,
a flame that could last.
but that could never happen.

love at first sight,
surely not.
love at first thought,
surely not.
He can't do what he wants.
though he wants to.
who is stopping him?
no one but himself.

excuses were made.
but he lied.
to everyone.
to anyone.
to himself.
"it's better that way."
he tells himself.
"it's not your place."
he says.
but it is.
it is.

no one is good enough for her.
no one.
he loves her.
but tells himself no.
he can't have her.
he won't let himself.
but he needs to be selfish.
just this once,
and kiss the girl.
not let her walk away.not this time.
a first chance only happens once.
a first love only happens once.
but will he?
will he bite the bullet,
stop the door,
hold the elevator.
but will he.